Why my brain is currently a total asshole:
1) My persistent writers block
In the past month, I have lost count of how many blog posts I have started and deleted. I have wanted to rant about stupid uni assignments and dumb people, rave about my current book obsession and Dragon Age some more, and just simply talk about many wonderful things that I hold close to my heart, but I seem to have had a complete inability to type such things in a way that doesn’t sound like I just smashed my head against the keyboard. Often after being determined to blog, I will sit at the computer for half an hour staring at a blank screen, type a sentence, delete it, stare at the screen for another half hour, then crack a tantrum and give up. My brain seems to be stuck in scientific mode with all my Biology assignments I have been writing and just doesn’t want to comply with my creative desire to blog.
2) My need to remember every demonic movie I have seen when its dark
Brain: ‘Pssssst, Gemma….. now that you’ve turned the light off, remember that time you saw Gothica and there was that demon child that would always appear out of no where in the dark and freaked the shit out of you? Yeah, that was some scary shit, anyway, sweet dreams!’
Or I’ll remember the ‘ghost’ videos I’ve seen. Or supernatural stories people have told me. Or movies where aliens rip your face off. Sometimes I think my brain prefers to torment me over sleeping.
3) The fact that rather than remembering the hours of exam revision, my brain likes to sing Bohemian Rhapsody to me during exams.
Every. single. time.
4) Female hormones
They are stupid, irrational and often cloud thoughts and create drama and jealously out of nothing. My brain stimulates the creation of these lovely things, so I am holding it personally responsible. If you are going to fill me with feminine hormones, at least make them practical ones that will add to a womanly figure in the chest or buttocks region where they can be of some nice use rather than making me moody and weepy for no reason. Please and thankyou.
/insert more whingeing here 😛
I am hoping holidays next week will be able to return my poor creatively starved brain to its normal state so I can stop being so frustrated at myself for lack of writing. Hopefully this irritable mood I have gotten myself into can be cured with chocolate for the time being while I am completing my pile of assignments. It hasn’t worked very well so far, but that just means I gotta eat more right? 😛